elol’s world!!!!!!

Have u ever been in luv?????Horrible is’nt it?It makes u so vulnerable.It opens ur chest n it open up ur heart,maening sum1 can get inside u n mess  u up.u built up ol these defences,u built up a whole surf of armor so dat nothing can hurt u but then came 1 stupid person, no different frm any other stupid person,wanders into ur stupid life……u gv them a piece of u.They didnt ask 4 it.They did sumtin dumb 1 day….like talk 2 u or smile at u,then ur life isnt urs anymore.LOVE takes hostages.It get inside u.It cats u out n leaves u crying in the darkness so simple as a phase like "mayb we should b just fren" turns into a glass splinter working its way into ur heart!ITS SURE HURT!!!!Not just in the imagination .not just in the mind…Its SOUL-HURT a real GET-INSIDE-U- n RIPS-U-APART pain….:(

If you and i can honestly tell each other who we are,that is,what we think,judge,feel,value,love,honour and esteem, hate,fear, desire,hope for,believe in and are commited to,then and then only can each of us grow..then and then alone can each of us can be what he or she really is,say what he or she really thinks,tell what he or she really feels,express what he or she really loves….

This is the real meaning of authenticity as a person,that my exterior truly reflects my interior.It means i can be honest in my communication of my person to others.And this i cannot do unless you help me..unless you help me coz i cannot grow or be happy or really come alive…

I have to be free and able to say my tought to you,to tell you about my judgement and values,to expose you my fears and frustration,to admit to you my failures and my shame,to share my triumph before i can really be sure what it is that i am and  can become.I must be able to tell you who i am before i can act truly which is in accordance with my true self…

I need to search deeply in myself, to get to know my strenght and weaknesess..to find the answer of WHO I AM…..